Where am I going? What am I doing?
I’m at a really strange place with photography right now. I feel very lost; I don’t know what I am doing or where I am going with it. It’s been bothering me for weeks — I don’t have any direction & people seem hell bent on making it into work for me. I didn’t get into photography for financial gain or acclaim. I got into it so I would have a free, relaxed, creative outlet outside of the design world in which I work. I am more than happy being a designer for my day job & I don’t feel I need or want photography to enter into that.
I don’t really know what to do with myself to get out of this funk, I don’t particularly want to do another Photo-A-Day project (Like my 365 or Fifty of Fifty), but maybe some sort of other project would be good for me? Something that focuses less on time & more on a particular image aspect or style but still applies a little presser. Or maybe it’s my last project that has made me feel like this & I need to just step back from it all. I could maybe even just shoot film for a few months… But then I work well under pressure, I even relish it blah. Getting an MFA degree is a good idea to help me get out of this rut but I’m still undecided about it.
Without some sort of direction it just doesn’t feel right, but right now I don’t think I’m able to choose a direction so I’m floating. I fear that’s making me feel slightly apathetic toward it. This is all just me thinking out loud I guess but if anyone has any thoughts or opinions I’d love to hear them.
I’m going to London on Thursday for a long weekend away, bit of casual shooting, coffee & good company might do me some good.